Christmas 2013

30 December 2013

money saving

Realising that I need to save up over £3,000 to afford the photography equipment I want is a daunting but bloody motivating thought!! I have come to the realisation that with photography equipment you really do get what you pay for - which basically means I'm going to put my life into money saving mode so hopefully in a good few months time I will be able to finally afford the lenses that I want. Photography is such an expensive hobby, but then again for me it is so rewarding so I know that saving up to afford some better gear will be worth it in the long run, even if I get fed up of eating beans and bread for 6 months.

There is no place like home

19 December 2013

After being away from my home in England for what seems like forever, I am absolutely revelling in being back here again. I'm sure these two weeks I'm home for Christmas will fly by, unfortunately.
There really is nowhere like home.
I sorted my room out and threw away a load of rubbish that was clogging up space, literally and metaphorically. It's clean and clear now and I feel like I am ready to get organised. I have for a long time now wholeheartedly believed that an organised room makes an organised mind, there is simply nothing better than a tidy room and it seriously does make me feel so much better about everything. Not even joking.
Naturally I took a few photos of my bedroom in the midst of suffocating in the happiness of being back here again.





Disneyland Paris time!









A little something about tattoos...

15 December 2013

It's quite difficult to write how I feel about tattoos or how I feel about how other people feel about tattoos simply because I have such an opinion on the matter that I'm not sure how to word it in a way that does justice to my thoughts. It's strange that something I'm so passionate about is so difficult for me to word. But I'll start simply; my stance on tattooing is defensive - not because I feel the need to excuse my reasoning for getting the tattoos that I have, but simply because there is no black and white answer regarding the prospects you have in life whether you have tattoos or not. It frustrates me to another level when people say you'll regret tattoos later on in life, or that you won't get a job if you've chosen to tattoo. To me, this is ridiculous. Maybe it seems like complete shit on such a personal level because, for me, the life that I want to pursue is not one that can be discriminated against according to personal preference. Wanting to pursue photography is a career in which self expression is vital, maybe this is why I have a predisposition to body art, or maybe it's not, but having a picture permanently on my wrist is not something that's going to stop me getting where I want to be because, frankly, how can a tattoo define a personality, a motivation? How can it characterize self-worth or determination? If anything, many tattoos are permanent motivational reminders. Yes, it's true that you don't necessarily need to get something written on your skin in order to remember it daily, but that's just the thing with tattoos - some people are more inclined to go for it and some people are not and there is no difference in the credibility between the two and no reason why one is going to get further in life than the other. For me, a tattoo is a form of self expression as much as what clothes you wear or what color you dye your hair - it is also an expression that is becoming evermore accepted in the workplace, just like it should be and should always have been.

My first tattoo was a bow on my wrist. I had to use someone else's ID because I was underage at the time, but I have never been so sure about anything in my life when I got it done. I used the three month rule, in that you wait 3 months before getting it to see if you still want it, and it was excruciating waiting so long that when it finally came around I was even more sure than ever. I got it done at lunch time while in lower sixth, November this year marks the 4th year that I've had it and it is still my favorite tattoo to date. I'm not sure whether this is because it was my first or because it marks the end of a time in my life that, without going into any detail, was so confusing and somewhat difficult for little young me. Seriously, I still love it as much as when I first got it done and every time I brush my teeth in the mirror and see it on my wrist, it makes me happy. I absolutely love it four years down the line and I can't see a day when I won't. I now have four tattoos, two on my left wrist and one on my rib. I already have plans for more. I think they are an exceedingly beautiful form of art and that is an opinion of mine that will never change. I have always been drawn to tattoos and I will be for many many more years to come.



Before I warble on, I'd like to make it clear if I haven't done so already that I strongly believe tattoos should have a personal appeal and that the argument I've been making up until this point is categorically one for tattoos with meaning. A famous tattooist once said that if a tattoo doesn't "tell a story" then it is not a "valid tattoo". While I can't say I agree completely with this opinion, I do think it is fair to say that a decorative tattoo has the capacity to become irrelevant and therefore regrettable. That I agree with and can fully understand. In this post, I am talking solely about tattoos done with feeling, emotion and a cause, tattoos that I don't think have the capacity of regret. It's like a different take on that famous saying; "people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel". A 'pretty' tattoo for aesthetic appeals sake and nothing else - well of course that can be regretted, you'll forget why you did it, you'll forget what the point of it was and I can safely say that when you're 85 it's hard not to argue that you won't regret getting a tramp stamp done when you were 18 and single. But a tattoo that was done with feeling, with a cause, a memory, a reminder of something special, THAT can never and will never grow old in my opinion. It will never be something you didn't feel at one point, it will never be something that hasn't made you who you are today, and it will never be a meaningless mark on your body that you thought looked pretty when you were less fat and wrinkly. It's a reminder of something, of a time in your life when something was important enough to permanently write it into your skin. It is not just a pretty pattern than can age and become irrelevant to your future life like a meaningless tattoo can, it is part of you and where you've been.

Not to completely discredit my entire opinion but just because it is impossible to implement my point without using this seriously overused quote - but it's true, you really do only live once. And seriously, excuse the cliche - but how can you regret something that once made you smile? Regardless of whether tattoos fade and people change and life moves on, you are not the person you are today without your past and every choice you made. Maybe one day I'll wonder why I thought it necessary to get something my seventeen year old self wanted permanently etched into my wrist, but I can safely say that regret is a word that will never ever cross my mind in relation to the way I've treated my body. When I get to seventy I can promise you that I will look back on every single mark on my skin and remember how I got to where I am, the stupid things I thought, the stupid things I did and the stupid choices I made as well as all the good things - in the end all reflecting who I've become. Partly through bruises and scars I'm sure, but notably through the color that has been permanently inked beneath my skin. Natana Whakaari said of tattoos; "it will be your ornament and companion until your last day" and personally, I would rather die covered in a life full of memories than with nothing at all.

A tattoo is an affirmation: that this body is yours to have and to enjoy while you're here. Nobody else can control what you do with it.

Bride: Gemma

22 November 2013

Kristen




Self portrait

19 November 2013

Terry Richardson style self-portrait seeing as I have a huge white wall in our apartment and I've been stalking his website all day weeeeey.


New ideas

Living in Paris and having so much school work to prepare and an official job has meant that doing photography has taken an absolute back seat over the past few months which is annoying. That said, I have decided that instead of just doing spontaneous shoots of friends and stuff in local areas, I really really want to create bigger and better images. I feel like shooting friends for fun to make pretty pictures is something I've been doing for so long now and I have just got comfortable with it but I don't want to continue it forever. I really want to immerse myself into something fully and imagine and research and create something so much better. I just want more feelings and emotion and thought to go into my photography instead of simply point and shoot and a pretty subject. I'm going to start planning something. Something bigger and something better that will get me out of this rut I'm in of meaningless photoshoots.

Little Miss Paris

24 October 2013











Today in Paris...

23 October 2013

























Tuesday afternoon

06 September 2013



Tom and Jo's engagement shoot I

Gem's Wedding

One of my oldest family friends recently asked me to take some photographs at her wedding. Obviously, I absolutely leapt at the chance to be able to freely wander around and take my own photographs instead of having to make sure I wasn't getting in the way of anyone else. It was the most beautiful wedding I think I have, and probably ever will go to. Gem's dress was beyond beautiful and the whole day was an absolute vision of perfection. It was such a pleasure to be able to photograph such an important occasion and it was actually my first day with official wedding photographer status! (Sort of!) Yay!